I can't believe it's almost 2017, I haven't even completed my list of good intentions (yet!). It's quite hilarious how every year, I write down a list of things I want to accomplish in the following year when instead, I should just follow the flow of life and take things as they come. If I were to evaluate 2016, it wouldn't be getting good ratings as this has probably been one of the hardest years of my 20 years of existence. I've dealt with physical problems that have lead to mental changes and my perception of events. I learned to focus on the good and not be ashamed of having a cry now and then. It's okay to be soft nowadays and don't let people or situations make you feel indifferent about anything. I learned that letting go is easier said than done. I learned that, despite thinking I know myself completely, I'm still discovering who I am and what my goals are in life. I also learned that learning is a good thing and it's something that will always be present in everybody's life.
December 8, 2016
The feeling of turning twenty is frightening yet freeing at the same time. To me, no longer being 19 means having more responsibilities, less spare time and being myself. Successful people (singers, actors, CEO's of multinationals) seem to have an incredible list of accomplishments on their curriculum vitae or they're well-known and famous at the age of twenty. For a university student with little to no accomplishments on her cv this can lead to frustrations sometimes. I know it's not the most important thing to worry about, but it does bother me now and then.
As a fifteen year old girl, I always thought being twenty meant that I would completely know myself, I'd have my life figured out and my social contacts would be booming. Also, I most likely envisioned myself with a cute guy on my arm when instead, I'm watching Ed Sheeran's 'funniest moments' and I can only dream of meeting a guy like him one day. What I'm trying to say is that you shouldn't let yourself guide by an ideal that you or someone else imprinted in your head. It's okay not to have a picture perfect life with Bridget Jones being incredibly and scarily relatable (she too got married in the end with a lovely man).
I've been struggling with anxiety a lot lately and it's not the easiest mindset to live with. Everything that goes wrong or feels wrong is giving me nightmares and heart palpitations. I'm working on my own brand (aka my blog), I'm finishing an ebook and I'm pushing myself to be who I am. Those projects make me feel proud of myself, but they also stress me out. To prevent these anxiety attacks I wrote a list of things I want to accomplish this year and it's not the most mainstream one, but it's part of my 'ME' project where I want to be completely in peace with who I am and where my life will take me. Life is a crazy, scary ride with unexpected events along the way, but a gift wouldn't make you as happy as it does now if you always knew what the content would be, right?
· THE BUCKET LIST ·
· Getting a tattoo
· Publishing my ebook 'Sweet Simple Cooking'
· Go on Erasmus to England to improve my English skills
· Continue building my blog and YouTube channel
· Travel to Edinburgh and visit Tom Riddle's grave
· Finish writing my fantasy novel
· Getting my ear pierced
December 4, 2016
This outfit is pretty much my basic winter attire and the only thing that switches up is the color of the sweater and which pair of black trousers I'm wearing that day. Other than that, I keep myself warm with a thick scarf, warm gloves and winter socks (yes, the ones that your grandma used to buy for you). I would love to know what your basic winter outfit is!
shoes: Doc Martens // Trousers: Only // Sweater: Ichi // Scarf: H&M